Thursday, February 07, 2008

Dropping Acid, Then Lets Meet Here

After five fairly intricate, somewhat positional games with my fine opponent, who outranked me by a bit, (1w/3L/1d=5 before our final game shown below), I won our sixth game, before turning out to sleep now, saying to him as I played 1.e4 e5 2.f4: "Lets go for it".

Of course, as many of you know, I am not an e4 player, but I can do it when I want to, especially the Kings Gambit, which I tend to spring late in a series, as if to say, 'lets switch it up a bit'. Also, wide viewing of mryiads of GM games allows me to do this on demand:

My guru's spiritual teacher, Maharish, whom she lived with in India for eight years in the 70's, writing him of her strange, otherworldly experiences, simply sent her a one word telegram in reply, saying:


She packed her bags, went round the world, and thus began her journey. He made her a teacher, and she trained me as a teacher trainee. His influence comes directly to me, through her directly. Added to that, she studied with Tibetan Lamas for years, in my tradition, Zochen [Tib.: Engl for 'Pathless path']. Thus my very, very exposed work with the public, at her suggestion. Screaming at me, literally:

"Consulting? Technical sales? Project Management. NO! No. Get a humble job. A waiter, or something humble". After nine months of hard looking, if not two years unemployed, after I left Wall Street, she suggests this--and I had my retail job five days latter, and have now been there closer to six years than not now.

Maharishi died two days ago, in the Netherlands, after reaching millions with his transcendental meditation.

Warmest, dk


Blogger Temposchlucker said...

I never realized the Kings Gambit is contagious.

Thu Feb 07, 03:32:00 PM PST  
Blogger transformation said...

let it not be forgotten, when i first met my coach, or more what perhaps might be better called a chess guide on the road of real--true--improvement, he asked me from the start to ONLY play e4. i did this for half a year, and have a great many King Gambits dating from BEFORE when i even first knew you or takchess.

he told me: 'ONLY play gambits so that you learn to play for or with the initiative". how could i not think of you, again and again.

still, the heart grows warmer knowing you are not too far away.

if i have lost two in a row with white, i might throw out one last game, with e4, hate meeting the sicilian and do horribly with 1e4 c5 with the Smith-Mora or other Sicilians, much better with the Ruy Lopez, less well with the french, and of course no worries against the Caro-Kahn, which i necessarily know all sides of.

the pirc i can meet from wide 1.d4 knowledge, as it is just not too different.

i am solidly back to 1d4, and vary with 1.Nf3 my old haunt, then 2.d4 3.g3, not least of which, excitement with the new "A Strategic Opening Repertoire
by John Donaldson & Carsten Hansen", taking me away again from horrid encounters with preped up black oppositions, with Benoni's, Kings Indians, Queens Indian's, Nimzo Indians.

To play against 1.e4 is my vision of hell, as 1.d4 and 1.Nf3 or even 1.c4 i can understand at all angles from way, way back in time, but e4 just feels like more lost in the big forest of chess.

but 1.e4 e5 2.f4 always feels good to me late at night in a riskless game of blitz. :)

warmest, dk

Thu Feb 07, 06:11:00 PM PST  
Blogger tanc(happyhippo) said...


I'm just the opposite of you.

Being a predominantly 1.e4 player, I will be unlikely to switch to 1.d4 anytime soon. I'm just having too much fun, winning AND losing on both sides.

Once in a while, I wheeled out the King's Gambit more as a surprise weapon than anything else. I find that at my level, some players get lost in the myriad of confusion because I love to mix it up ie. attack straight off the start.

Sometimes, I think the fear of walking into your opponent's prepared lines scare us but I always take things in a more positive light. I walk straight into them because in this way, I learn more about their openings than it would take me days to know. I find that as I play into their prepared lines, I start to know what kind of player they are.

Just my 2 cents.

Fri Feb 08, 06:03:00 PM PST  
Blogger transformation said...


thank you. i hear you all the way. many thoughts and here are but a few to your particularly excellent comment stimulates and prompts:

we are not the opposite--i feel:

i played 1.d4 most of my adult life and 1.Nf3 (and 1.c4, for me, these all go together, more or less as the case may be) with it, to avoid certain lines.

i only played 1.e4 to specifically become uncomfortable, and thus to face all kinds of new positions and, of course, thus force the mind to react and act in uncomfortable situations, to produce growth, push for 'the initiative' or learn to play for the initiative.

we are maybe opposite in that you would not play 1.d4 just to force your brain to stretch? this was a very painfull process, but made me aggressive, since i cared not how much i lost, and learned to lose with honor, but always with a razors edge.

so, my KGA means i can turn this on at will, or as black play 1.e4 d5. 2.exd... c6. i do not play like this, but can when i choose to. again, he told me to only play gambits as 1.e4. thus as white: 1.e4 c6 2.d4 d5. 3.f3.... etc.

i, too, like to play against prepared lines, and am finally working on my opening book. no disagreement or differences there.

i faced 1.e4 (i am black) c6 2.f4 many, many times. always thought: "god, i am screwed now". but now i play 1....e5 and am preparing an elaborated line.

to play the caro as a positional player with tactical bent is not fun, but i fight fire with fire.

i have gone deep with fritz8 into: 2.fx4... Qh4+, and now 2.Nf3 d5.

i also whip out (very, very fast):

1.e4 c6 2.d4 d5 3.Nc3 dxe 4.Nxe4... i used to always play 4...Bf5 5.Ng3 Bg6 BUT now, i always play 4...Nf6 5.Nxf6 and ...gxf6. they think i am rash, and keep whipping out moves, thinking i have somehow failed to consider king safety and pawn structure. but i have played this many, many times and have an elaborated plan now, and with my eyes closed, know what to do for quite a ways.

in blitz, White tends to pause a few moves out, as if to say, now what do i do? since i used only seconds, they suddenly come to realize that Black is exactly where he wants to be. so similar to you.

just a few thoughts.

back to work, literally (home for lunch at six pm)!

warmest, dk

Fri Feb 08, 06:44:00 PM PST  
Blogger BlunderProne said...

I "crossed over" and can play 1.e4. Its two totally different mind sets, Positional versus tactical. Though either one can lead to the other. This is where reading the opponent can come in handy. If you know they prefer quiter positional games then try to play more tactically for instance.

BTW... any follow up on the dispatcher job search?

Sun Feb 10, 08:48:00 AM PST  
Blogger transformation said...

i have been saving my story for a near next post or two.

i already have writen half to 2/3'rds of the Derek Slater essay from the Prolegeoma Series, and within the answer to your question is discussed.

nevertheless, so as to regard your kindest question, no, i didnt quite get it. for a variety of reasons, despite many good scores, missed in a big way in the typing speed category. they need someone who can bang disress call data in with their eyes closed accurately and VERY quickly, and proficient as i am, am not "highly proficient".

BTW, they were all very, very, very professional in how they go about this and communicate. i was most impressed. mark my words, you pass their test, and the half year it takes to train you to take your first call is a real attainment in this world. most people have no idea who these folks are and what it takes.

a reattempt is not something i envision. again, latter please but thank you blunderpone.

Sun Feb 10, 02:08:00 PM PST  
Blogger tanc(happyhippo) said...

hello dk,

what you say about 1.playing e4 to become uncomfortable and forcing the mind to react is exactly what I am achieving for.

being a newbie player, I strive for complications and I feel it is the best way for me to improve because the very nature of the struggle often forces my brain to calculate. in this way, i learn more about myself esp. when i missed certain lines. this forces me to reorganise/finetune my thought processes so that i can improve quickly.

sorry to hear that you got lucked out on the dispatcher job.

take care.

Sun Feb 10, 03:31:00 PM PST  
Blogger BlunderProne said...

A solution awaits for your in your quest. You're mind is open enough to receive the direction. Patience is a requirement. Belief in yourself and capabilities should be unending. The correct path will be shown and when it does, I have the utmost confidence in your abilty to pounce on the opportunity.

Sun Feb 10, 03:58:00 PM PST  
Blogger transformation said...

im glad that you get it.

this is exactly why, when i say:

that WHEN i had a chance to make enough money to last me for several years, travel round the entire world twice, but instead lost what little i had left

(*** i was short the market, with leverage, before the sorrowful 9-11 attack {no pun intended: 9-1-1} but inexplicably decided at the last minute to go long, lossing 'all of it' ***),

THAT this is not a financial story or problem, but to the root, a truly bewitching spiritual problem or correction.

god gives us what we need, we get what we need.

so, when i was disembarking from downtown police headquarters, did not feel sad THEN, but understood right away that creation, fate, the Tao, the Dow {Jones Industrials if you will!}, buddha, absolute reality, jesus, optimal human potential, self realization, self actualization had something else for me.

nevertheless, five days latter, i am very, very, very, very sad and down.

not for the loss of this. no. i understand and accept others can and will be more exactly suited for this.

but what now? life feels like a ruin. not from this, but one more brick in the wall of midlife...

i know that you of all persons understand.

love dk

Sun Feb 10, 04:11:00 PM PST  
OpenID liquideggproduct said...

People always seem to have conflicting advise. The latest I've been following is "learn a small set of openings and gain expertise with it, so you know what it takes to be expert at an opening". But the "mind expansion" of switching openings is also alluring.

They both sound reasonable to me.

It's interesting that your guru recommended a "humble" job. Each person and how they react to outside circumstance is different, I suppose. I've always believed humility comes more from within, and will be exhibited regardless of circumstances. But people gaining humility by practicing a "lowly" task makes sense, too.

Who knows, I still need more experience with life.

Mon Feb 11, 07:12:00 PM PST  
Blogger Pawn Shaman said...

My roommate was talking tonight about what he did when things got really rough. He was strung out living on the streets and life was crumbling. So he closed his eyes and pictured blackness. He said when he pictures the blackness the past doesnt matter, it just disappears. Same with the future it goes away. All thats left is the present. I was amazed and fascinated when he said all this. He has never studied anything about religion. He just discovered this form and value of the present on his own. It made me think of your posts and the experiences you have shared. The present is awesome. I always enjoy reading your blog.

Mon Feb 11, 10:35:00 PM PST  
Blogger BlunderProne said...

Isent you an email... I hope you didn't mind

Tue Feb 12, 06:41:00 AM PST  
Blogger transformation said...

thank you very much. i am touched that you care. i elected to avoid the one line reply: 'thanks, i got your email, and appreciated greatly but am mentally exhausted'.

yesterday was my once a month true monday, and i am tired! in the next day or two, i promise to look at it. yes, i am aware of the company you wrote me about, and in the past, neither my friends or myself could dent its heavy fort knox like armor!

i am glad that you care, most appreciative, and need a certain type of robust physical and emotional energy to take this next step this week.

work is draining me. work itself is not the problem, but the seering negativity and lack of support of ANY KIND.

it is truly a chicken and the egg phenomenon that leaves me diminished. thank you. warmest, dk

Tue Feb 12, 12:37:00 PM PST  
Blogger takchess said...

Nice to see your King's Gambit. It was like two hoodlums going to each others house with sledgehammers and see who can destroy the other's more.

"i did this for half a year, and have a great many King Gambits dating from BEFORE when i even first knew you or takchess."

Somebody told me there was this guy Morphy who played it even before you and Tempo. 8) But I must say your play was very Morphyesque .


Wed Feb 13, 05:30:00 AM PST  

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